5th

outside tea's old place, i ruin every damn thing

the bus i took home so often, #1 north and south bound

tea and i went to this chinese place by my dads apartment a lot
i got hired there but never went cause i had moved away to college
by the time they had called me

coltrane mackendrick is a blues god

coltrane played guitar on one fei lung demo

you're too young to be smoking so much

they looked like caged animals playing in there

i owe the best and worst times of my life to Lake Worth, Florida

Palm Beach County is pretty devoid of culture

i think we got nachos after my last court date

Docs in Delray Beach, FL

tea and i saw this cat on a walk towards the bus stop

she fell asleep on the train south

lost dog

a big development was being built by my dads apartment
we decided to play in the fountain

i think that's matt and tea in the fountain

matt and tristan also smoke too much

tristan, keeper of the flame

there was a pizza place that had a strawberry field and a petting zoo
in the back

i think this was a sign, i don't remember what it said

further proof of my blight

ancient creature caught on film

I think this was the middle of my last semester in high school

i hadn't mentioned on here that i had about 5 court dates in between october of 2015 to i think April of 2016.

I'm not a bad person, just a stupid kid who ran away from home in the middle of the night to get drunk at the college football stadium behind my house, They would leave out a lot of beer after games and i would pillage the place. I took a lot of people to that stadium who aren't in my life anymore. Weird reflecting on those times. I wasn't all innocent however, I stole a lot of shit from that college. Nothing major though.

I'd sneak in to record Omnia Mea songs in their theater because they had a piano in a rehearsal room.

My late junior year in high school to my early senior year was filled with late night fuckery on that campus. 

Anyway, Coltrane's band was called epicurean pleasure

that's who we saw at the PBC Culture whatever in Lake Worth. 

Eventually I would record my band with him, and he'd play on one demo that's arguably my favorite song we did.

Matt doesn't know what he's doing with his life and Tristan is going to school for theater in north carolina, or tallahasee, he doesn't know yet, I'm a year or two older than both of them.

Things change

3rd

my old best friend scott

another bus ride home from tea, this may have also been to

old neighborhood

i used to live near a private airport, rich people would fly their planes overhead

there was someone on a scooter that passed after i took this,
wish i could have captured that instead

in my crosshairs

my old pup shmoogie at my old house

that dog is probably going to die soon

old hound

look at the cow go

she's a cutie, she has really nice eyes

other cute thing

i wonder what goes on in her head

These were likely taken in January before i got kicked out of my house, i talk about that a lot, it was a big turning point in my life, to live unafraid for once

The picture of my old best friend playing piano is weird, only because we had stopped seeing each other more and more as he grew up, we just grew in different ways, i write a lot about that when i rap

i remember playing the first omnia mea  song on that piano

there's not too much to say about these pictures, i'm going to miss that dog when she dies, she lives with my dad now so i still see her on occasion

4th

this may have been my old neighborhood, before i got kicked out

tea's mom wouldn't leave for work until 7:30 so we'd loiter somewhere
until she'd leave so we could sleep all day

dork

this was sammy's car, i hated sam, sam hated me 

i took many busrides to and from the train station to go see tea,
she lived so far away

at my dads shop

my dad at work and his friend Mitch

i like older mercedes, i thought the window looked cool with all
the paint

my dad once told me he thought about killing himself under a lift and
making it look like an accident, his relationship with my mother
was falling apart for many years, but finally did after 21
 he thought we'd be better off without him
and with the life insurance money

i hate on teen suicide cause they suck now but this always makes me
think of the song 'xxxxxxx' which i have a tattoo of

i gave tea a tattoo that day i think, or maybe she gave me one, we listened
to matsuri

she went over my 'bummer' tattoo on my foot

tea would have her first anxiety attack in front of me that night
we sat shivering outside because she needed air

such a sweet person

ink exploded in her bag and got everything all mucky

calm before the storm i guess, i believe i wrote the lyrics
'no one's gonna look at me the way you do'
based on this picture

i went to tea's house late on a friday and she didn't want to wake up her mom,
(who was abusive and irrational) so we stayed outside all night until i got annoyed
at how afraid tea was of her moms irrational ass, i should have understood
i was finishing off the roll with a dumb picture
later this night we were asleep on a bench when the police woke us up
because someone thought her and i were collectively one homeless person
i will never understand why people call the police on others for sleeping
or for being homeless, nosy fucking yuppy home owners

This is the fourth roll of film i shot, i believe it was january/february of 2016 which makes it a year ago, tea was giving me stupid stick and pokes at the time and i had just moved in to my dads place and he was single and dating so he wasn't around too often, we had a lot of time to just be

she was so afraid i was going to leave her after she had that anxiety attack

it was bad

we both struggle with mental health, we've both held each other down from hitting things and wiped many tears from half conscious faces

i don't know what i'd do without tea in my life, i'm a piece of shit and i take her for granted, there's a lot i can blame on illness but there's also a lot that i can't

she should have left me a long time ago, we're in it for the long run though

we plan on moving to philadelphia so i can do music and she can become a tattoo artist

from stick and pokes to the actual thing, i'm so proud of her, her art is fucking incredible,

she just did a t-shirt design for open mike eagle